Love struck.

Release me.

2011-12-30T01:50:00.002+08:00

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Sorry for the lack of update! Have started school, and not much 'bang' in my life now. Happy though, goodnight.

Company Lunch *Long Overdue.

2011-12-15T14:48:00.002+08:00

Went for company lunch and had a feast! Followed by a movie with the guys at lido? Had fun! Sorry for the long overdue pictures! Bye now.

Give Me Everything Tonight

2011-12-12T07:08:00.002+08:00

Went to Helipad for the drinks and the company, though I didn't have any alcohol, had as much fun as if I did have a few drinks. Feel like the clubbing scene isn't my cup of tea anymore, lost and bored as though I've been doing this for the longest time ever. Work again tomorrow and man, do I feel so lazy. Am thinking of quitting by the end of this year, am sick of being at the airport although its does give me a stable income every month. Well, need to be awake by 12. Time check : 7:17am, time to sleep. Goodnight everyone. Have an awesome day!

My Lazy Thursday Afternoon

2011-12-08T15:09:00.002+08:00

Wearing this grey jacket and relaxing at home, whipping up mini snacks while I sit in front of the TV watching my Korean dramas. Crying and laughing, laughing and crying. I wonder, whether these burst of emotions are due to the ones trapped inside of me now. I'm finding out new things everyday, and sometimes things I never wanted to know. Yet, they just keep appearing in front of me. What can I do but listen and take it all in. A friend told me, that i'm a very fickle-minded person, isn't many? Nevertheless, i'm trying my utmost best in hopes i'll be a wee bit less fickle. So i've come to a conclusion that i'm going to get my degree at SIM and then apply for stewardessing after I study. Travel the world and then come back to Singapore to work till retirement. My life plan! Okay going to go do a little grocery shopping plus buy my blackberry! Have a good day/night everybody!~

So many things, so little money.

2011-11-27T03:53:00.003+08:00

Hohoho. HI GUYS! <3

- Pay my gym fee

- Get Iphone 4GS

- Open up an OCBC account

- Room Makeover

- Sign Up for school (Looking forward to SIM)

- Sign on at a slimming centre + facial

- Go on a shopping spree

- Find venue for my 19th Birthday (Sighh, big problem)

Why does everything require money :(? Now even before the month is up, i'm broke alrdy! Gahhhh have a non-broke night everyone, sweetdreams.

Banana Split Icecream

2011-11-21T16:30:00.002+08:00

I think short hair is getting to me, i'm becoming an 'ahlian', (Ya, to my friends, I know I am already one, but since i'm 1/4 english makes me un-ahlian! haha!) Work from 12.45 - 10.30pm tonight, and I haven't had sleep since yesterday, i'm pretty exhausted. Almost to the extent where I can sleep standing up.. Long hours, tiring nevertheless fun, and extremely fulfilling. It feels as though, I own an ice cream shop, I actually don't mind opening up a little cafe, selling pastry and top grade donuts, the ones that melt instantly in your mouth and are sugar coated, not glazed (Sugar coated donuts that melt in your mouth are the epitome of awesomeness, especially the ones that are freshly made in bakeries in England. Time for round two of icecream? Hmm, nutella next?

Have a wonderful day lovely people. :)

Wet Cats.

2011-11-21T06:22:00.003+08:00

So cute! <3

Love letters to you.

2011-11-21T05:45:00.002+08:00

As you all know, i'm a sucker for romance. Dim light, candles, rose petals, all seem so yummy to me. When you feel loved, you think about these things with your other half, and you heart just bursts with overwhelming feelings. I happened to stumble upon a poetry website, and started to look through them. It made me feel so, unexplainable, in a good way. A happy feeling, an indescribable thought. So today, my post will be all about.. Yes you guessed it. Romance, love. Emotions that make you feel all fuzzy inside.

This is entitled, 'Because She Would Ask Me, Why I Loved Her'.

If questioning could make us wise
no eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
if all our tale were told in speech
no mouths would wander each to each.

Were spirits free from mortal mesh
and love not bound in hearts of flesh
no aching bre.asts would yearn to meet
and find their ecst.asy complete.

For who is there that loves and knows
the secret powers by which he grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
to thrill and faint and sweetly ble.ed?

Then seek not, sweet, the If and Why
I love you now until I di.e:
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give. <3

Busy bee.

2011-11-20T05:11:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to put on those pounds again, what a bitter memory. Being shunned by people whom you thought was the apple of your eye. I never, repeat, NEVER, want to go back to that 72kg girl ever. Yet, I've always believed in looking on the bright side of life, considering the fact that many are deeper in a ditch than I am. Its funny how people perceive you to be, based on your looks. Am I not correct? What I'm trying to put across to you is, that if you are not what people consider as, and I quote, 'Beautiful or pretty' then they wouldn't even take one glance at you, let alone talk to you. Honestly speaking, I've been struggling for acceptance all my life, and still am. Its come to a stage, however, that being myself is all that matters to me right now, accomplishing something greater, so that I won't be fighting for the attention. No matter where in life you're at, people will be always judging you, no matter how successful, no matter how pretty. That is why, you have to understand that even if you try your very best to succeed, there will still be people trying to bring you down. Fret not, because you know, that by ignoring them, you've already won half the battle.

Goodnight pretty little things :)

Bring it on birthday girl.

2011-11-14T02:21:00.001+08:00

Haven't seen sue in the longest time ever!

Susanne! <3

Me and Pearlvinder AKA Ms Angmoh 2011

I absolutely love how I can just let go with the girls!

Me and Jo!

Sonson and Jerms <3 Need to catch up with Sonya!

The music was awesome, had so much fun!

Shu and her different faces, haha.

Me and Weiron! *coughcough**Jermaine**coughcough* haha!

Another shot with Pearlvinder..

Red hair for the win!

Katy Perry inspired outfit of the day!

Me and Daphne in red! Red is such a pretty colour..~

Sussy why are you so cute?

Susanne again!

Me and jojojo, clubbing buddy! <3

Haha, no comment.

Mafia!

I love my girlies!

Classic <3

Me, Huiying and Shuyun (Shuyun extra though) hahaha

Me and Nikkie, I love that girl!

Chloe! Pretty girl!

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To sum up my night, celebrated Shuyun's birthday and had so much fun with the girls. Had dinner at Hooters, and then headed to Helipad, love the decor of the newly opened place. Filled with gorgeous people as well. Danced, drinked and other crazy things. But our night didn't end there, went to Nana after that to drink somemore. (haha!) Drank hennessey, and got high, had so. much. fun.

However, I don't think i'm going to club anymore (I might be lying, who knows, hah) Time to get serious, and start thinking about my future. Okay, then. Goodnight and sweetdreams :)

Ice cream chef.

2011-11-03T14:29:00.002+08:00

I'm having the time of my life @ ice cream chef. Loving every moment of it <3 First time in my life i'm enjoying what I do hehe.

The day I got a haircut.

2011-11-01T00:42:00.003+08:00

As usual, my hands couldn't keep off my head, my hands were itchy to snip of my hair! But for the first time in my life, I actually am adoring my new hairstyle + its making me feel as though its a new beginning. A new chapter in my life, where anything's possible. I went for a layered, short crop hairstyle, didn't know whether it would have suited me, but I went ahead and did it anyways. I absolutely love it though, makes me look more punk rock. O levels are ending soon, and I really can't wait to start at SIM. Degree in Banking & Finance, here I come!~

Have a wonderful night everyday!

First Confessional.

2011-10-28T04:29:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, today will be a wordy post with no pictures. Just feel like pouring my heart out.

It's kinda hard to explain this bittersweet feeling, I'm happy yet sad yet so many other emotions, call it bipolar, or something else, but it's just a mixture of so many things.

You can't blame me, for not being able to let go of my first, I mean, how many people are strong enough to do it? When I ask you to tell me how many people are able to, I'm not talking about those who act all happy outside and are actually secretly dying on the inside, they don't count. I don't want to force anything that isn't there, I don't want to force love when it does not exist. Period. No matter how much I try to not think about how painful it is losing someone I thought I loved (note* the word thought), it still manages to find itself into the tiny little hole that's still left open from my broken heart.

I realize that this isn't the end though, there will definitely be future heart-aches and break-ups that I would have to face, no matter how I try to avoid it, no matter how much I try to keep everyone at a distant, self-proclaiming that they're my brothers and telling myself nothing can ever happen between the two of us. I find myself trapped between the thin line of friendship and relationship status all the time.

There's a saying, 'You would definitely be attracted to other people, but at the end of the day, if your heart is taken by another, then no stranger would be able to snatch it back'. I feel all the time that I wouldn't be able to open my heart, time and time again, disappointment, and as cliché as it seems, I'm going through this phase everyday when I wake up. Asking myself for every failed relationship, what did I do wrong? Bottom-line, we're just not compatible. Everyday I look at the mirror, thoughts like 'I look so fat' and 'he left me cause I'm ugly' just pops up and it just adds on to my misery x1000000000. The painful thing is not because he left, it's because I found out that he didn't love me enough to want to stick it out, even through the hard times. To accept me at my worst, to want to make things work, no. He couldn't, we couldn't. Us just didn't work. I'm going to see girl after girl after girl, and it's going to rip me apart, but I care about him enough to say that seeing him happy is all I want, even if I'm not the one making him happy. I wouldn't say I would like to forget the relationship I had, because at one point in my life, I loved it, and I wanted it and I enjoyed every single moment I spent with him even to the last minute we were together.

I have to fight back the urge to text him or look for him at work, cause frankly I'll just look like a stalker ex-girlfriend that's desperate and cannot get over it. The test of my self-discipline, occupying myself with something other then him.

Occasionally, I see him, I hear about him from friends and all that's rushing through my head is, is he happy without me? Is he thinking about me? Is he better off without me? And these thoughts create this whirlpool of emotions and they just gush through my whole body like a tsunami to an island. I still remember all the sweet things he did for me, and these memories are the ones that tell me that he's worth all this pain. One day he's going to get married, and I will be just a distant memory, same goes for me. There was one time when I was sick and he bought me honey, a lemon, 6 packs of strepsils and a new cup and he finished it off with a rose. Or the time when we would go out with his friends and he wouldn't be ashamed of me, he would proudly say that I'm his girlfriend or the times when we randomly kissed cause I demanded it. Even until today, that memory never fails to make me giggle and smile. The good times were definitely more than the bad times, but you see, our relationship got boring, there was nothing new, everyday, the same routine. The same outings, the same everything. It came to a point that we questioned ourselves, what future did we have? It kills to see what I had to give up.

'Get over it Sarah, get over it. Get over yourself, get over him. Stop feeling so sorry for yourself. ' My mum tells me every single day. It's funny how she forgets her break-ups when it involves mine, she forgets how hard it is. How foreign it is for me... I don't know the proper way to react to this. Should I cry? Nah. Should I die? Maybe... Should I just forget and move on? Yea probably.

But how do you forget someone you thought was going to be part of your life for a long time? These are the questions that bug me, Every. Single. Day. The desperate need for affection is just so overwhelming sometimes, and not the affection you get from friends nor family. But the kind you get from your lover. The 'I'd give up my everything for you' love.

What's true love? Well, my definition is, letting go when you know you have to, for the good of him/her. That's true love, selfless. Love is selfless. Nothing will ever change that.

Goodnight everybody. I feel so much better after I got 4 months of problems out of my heart.

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Retail Therapy

2011-10-20T17:38:00.002+08:00

Coca chilli is just so delish.

Something with me and taking pics with a mirror! The dress costed $35 from F21!

Mad loving my new wallet, and bought it at $15~ Such a steal... <3

I am going gaga over headbands now, call it a phase, why don't you. Each was for $3-$6, considered cheap for headbands! Xtra loves!

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So pretty much to sum up my day, headed down to Takashimaya to have lunch with my mum (Coca Lunch Buffet = Awesome), ate so much, and i'm still so bloated from lunch.. long awaited retail therapy, and went absolutely balistic!~ But, considering the fact that i'm such a miser, I only got a dress, the rest is mostly essentials... contact lens solutions and what nots. Had a fun, girly day with my mum. Hopefully we can do it soon <3 Didn't get any shut-eye since yesterday, and, you guessed it, i'm am beyong exhausted. Soooo, early sweetdreams!

Diu diu diu.

2011-10-20T08:04:00.002+08:00

I love ma girlies <3 Don't know what i'll do without them!

When september ends.

2011-10-04T03:58:00.003+08:00

Went to have dinner with Benny and ate steamboat, yumyum! Its been too long since I had the chance to eat steamboat and I think the last time was about a week back? Met up with my girlies after, to hang at macs for awhile. Followed by a last minute meet-up with Benny again for supper! Prata was good!

Am exhausted now, and shopping with the mrs tomorrow! Goodnight <3

Work, weight, win.

2011-09-23T14:19:00.001+08:00

For myself, and not anyone else.

Sunset boulevard.

2011-09-21T21:06:00.002+08:00

I spent most of my day just lazing around and playing games on 1 hour trials (cause usually I get bored before the hour is up) I was also tired from having a night out with nick and dansen, had fun though.

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Zirca/Rebel with loves!

2011-09-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

Went to Zirca/Rebel with the lovelies, had so much fun!

Slow down.

2011-09-19T03:12:00.002+08:00

Listen to this, then you'd be able to understand the emotions running through my mind, while I type them out.

and I find myself, listening to this, when I miss you. When pictures of our kiss comes up, of our intimate moments. Soft and gentle, although a faded memory, a wonderful one. Yet, I know that we weren't made for each other. Why do I still hold on to us? Why won't I let this pain go away? Why do I insist on letting it ruin me? Everything's so new, every day I discover new feelings, a first for everything. I'm drawn to pain, i'm drawn to this pain. It hurts, and now i'm finally saying it, it really, really hurts so badly. No tears seem to fall anymore though, but i'm constantly crying on the inside...

Indescribable.

2011-09-16T03:05:00.002+08:00

I find myself living more and more like a Korean. I'm quite enjoying everymoment of it, the special utensils to their eating habits to the way they behave.

Each day goes by, and not one moment passes without me thinking of all the things i've not done. I think its time, to really set my priorities. Been saying that since forever, and it's easier said than done, really.

I care so much about the immediate things, that I don't look forward. What will make me take that leap towards sanity? What can I do but study, and focus on the more important things in life.

To be honest, friends, my social life, right now.. are things that are far more important than education. Yes, you must be thinking. What the heck? This girl is out of her mind. But, don't forget. I'm a teenager, popularity means everything.

Yet, i'm fighting this constant battle with myself every single day, every single minute. Why is it that my desires always wins? Why is it that I can't control my wants from my have toos?

That automatically makes me a failure, even though I've never tried or taken that step forward. Why? Just because. I know what's good for me, but I still choose to go the bad way.

Funny isn't it? How we know what's good for us, but choose to do what's possibly going to be the worst mistake of our lives. I need to really get down and think about it, be away from everyone, and everything.

Concentrate on what's best for me, and not anyone else.

What do you do when its raining?

2011-09-15T06:28:00.002+08:00

As I sit in my room, looking out my window. I wonder.. am I in a place where I cant comprehend? Where I don't even know what I have become. The rain drops one by one by one, like how my thoughts are appearing in my mind, yet it can not seem to find its way to my lips, for it to come out and actually mean something.

I think about things a lot nowadays, about almost everything. The question that is ringing in my head is... 'How can I live in my present when I can't even live in my past?'.

I don't feel emotional or anything, but more perturbed than sad or happy. I keep blaming everyone and everything about how unfulfilling my life is, and never blaming myself. That is my greatest mistake, apart from opening up my heart to someone who did not know how to protect it.

I don't blame him or anyone in that matter, I take this as a lesson learnt, a journey taken. I won't ever look back, not because it is painful but because I don't see the point in reliving my past. I still feel sorry though, that I jump into everything without thinking about the situation, wanting someone so badly that i'm willing to settle for something below average.

And that is why... I will always be my worst enemy. Little do I know, i'm constantly fighting this one on one battle with myself, with my thoughts.

I probably sound like some psycho maniac, but doesn't everyone go through this at a stage in their life? I'm fighting so many wars right now, wars meaning, with the decisions I make daily. I want to grow up so badly, I really do, so much that I would do almost anything to become an adult.. to be able to control my emotions, and the way I handle things.

Look at me, i'm just going on and on about my problems, and i'm sorry about that.

A friend once told me, 'saying sorry, doesn't cure everything'. Well, its better than not saying anything at all, and it's sure better than ignoring it. I say sorry because I feel sorry for what i've done, people use it ever so often nowadays and it seems that it has lost its value. I try not to use it too often, doesn't seem to be working quite well for me.

Its these things I want to say but sometimes I just can't bring myself to. You ask me, why now? Well, honestly, I don't know.. I just want to.. you know. grow up. I hate drawing drama to myself, and I hate feeling so miserable and sorry for myself. I hate it so, so much.

I don't want to be another teenager who has mood swings, or can't control their own feelings, when I myself am doing the exact same thing. Every single day, I tell myself. Sarah. Suck it up. Your life isn't terrible, they're people in worst conditions.

I need someone, to pick me up where i've fallen. and maybe, I'd still have hope of turning back.

Goodnight.

TGIFridays.

2011-09-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is a big day for me, let's just say. I'll need all the luck I can get! :) Have applied to Kaplan for their 'Diploma in Banking, Investment and Securities management' and i'm so excited!

[Pixie Lott - Verse 1]
I bought a new pair of shoes
I got a new attitude, when I walk
'Cause I'm so over you
And it's all about tonight

I'm going out with the girls
Ready to show all the boys what I got
I'm letting go of the hurt
'Cause it's all about tonight

[Chorus]
Yeah the night is alive
You can feel the heartbeat
Let's just go with the flow
We've been working all week
Tomorrow doesn't matter
When you're moving your feet
It's all about tonight

We'll be dancing and singing
And climbing up on the tables
We'll be rocking this party
So tell the DJ don't stop
Grab someone if you're single
Grab someone if you're not
It's all about tonight

[Pixie Lott - Verse 2]
And boy I'm not hanging on
'Cause I threw all your drama away
Had something good but it's gone
Yeah it's all about tonight
They got the music so loud
So I won't I hear the phone if you call
And we're so over now
'Cause it's all about tonight

[Chorus]
Yeah the night is alive
You can feel the heartbeat
Let's just go with the flow
We've been working all week
Tomorrow doesn't matter
When you're moving your feet
It's all about tonight

We'll be dancing and singing
And climbing up on the tables
We'll be rocking this party
So tell the DJ don't stop
Grab someone if you're single
Grab someone if you're not
It's all about tonight

[Bridge]
Tonight, tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight...

[Chorus]
Yeah the night is alive
You can feel the heartbeat
Let's just go with the flow
We've been working all week
Tomorrow doesn't matter
When you're moving your feet
It's all about tonight

We'll be dancing and singing
And climbing up on the tables
We'll be rocking this party
So tell the DJ don't stop
Grab someone if you're single
Grab someone if you're not
It's all about tonight

Errand day

2011-08-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

I have so many things to do today, its crazy.

- Collect my mail from the post office (I always seem to miss the postman when he knocks on my door)

- Remove my eye-lash extensions (its causing me so much problems, but as they say vanity doesn't come cheap)

- Go to the gym (I haven't been going to the gym, and I think i'm gaining! Oh no!)

- Transfer money for my gojane wedges (Mad pretty, am in love)

- Finish up my business studies assignments (Boring as hell)

- Try to finish up my ten-year series (Finger's crossed, I hope I do!)

- Create a diet journal (I probably have been saying this for a very long time, but hey everybody's secretly a procrastinator)

Blinding heartstrings

2011-08-22T05:27:00.002+08:00

Your the best thing that ever happen to me, sweetdreams my sweetheart.

Time for a change.

2011-08-22T05:19:00.002+08:00

To curl or not to curl, that is the question. I seem to waver from one hairstyle to another. Yes, fickle-mindedness, has always been like this. But yet, it's what defines me, no? It's time for a change, I keep telling myself. Attitude included, towards my school-work, my future and the way I do things. Even I realize the mistake, and refuse to do anything about it. Sighh, is life going to be like this till I pass on? Hate to be a procrastinator, especially when I procrastinate at all the important things. For example, studying. So today, I'm here to blog about the change i'm going to make in my life, a whole different person. I am going to make something of myself, and be happier. Hope it works out well. Time for some shut-eye, sweetdreams!

Running unicorns

2011-08-19T02:27:00.004+08:00

What a long and tiring day, spent my whole day studying and finishing up my assignments. I find myself giving myself more and more stress than I ought to, but what the heck. All in good fun? Been gym-ing for the past week and I already feel the calories burning. I smell megan fox baby. Tomorrow, another long day, not forgetting my gym session in the morning! My life's become a routine, and frankly quite enjoying my busy schedule. Things to do, people to meet. Life is better for now. It seems as though i'm very temperamental, one minute i'm happy the next sad. Haha, i'll try my best to keep a balance in my mood. Goodnight everybody.

Pitch Darkness

2011-08-15T03:21:00.002+08:00

I feel so unexplainable, i'm neither sad nor happy anymore. I don't want to be someone that goes on and on about how miserable their lives are, but I mean, its difficult sometimes especially when i'm alone. Alone meaning I can't really talk to anyone anymore, not really because I can't but more of I won't. It'll just be another burden for them, so I do my best to keep my mouth shut. Who am I kidding? I'm not happy at all, but maybe that's part and parcel of growing up or being a teenager? It is a void I have to get past, or I will never ever truly become myself. As the saying goes, 'I won't be able to love another, if I can't love myself'. I need a 'break' from the social aspects in my life right now, and concentrate on myself, as selfish as it seems, I need to be proud of myself before I can respect others. I want to show everybody that I am more than capable to grow into my own skin and become the person i've always wanted to be. I want to grow up, no. I need to grow up. No more being that innocent girl with a fairytale impression of life. Things can be so clear, when your life is more fucked up than you expected it to be. Goodnight, I hope it gets better with time.

Summerbreeze

2011-08-12T02:19:00.002+08:00

Its just one of those days where I feel like rambling on my blog, well everything so far has been going smoothly for me. Family, friends, loves. I can tell you that everything is falling into place. Exams are in a couple of weeks, and I am terrified because i'm not feeling a tiny bit of anxiety. Sometimes it gets me thinking, whether i'm going to make it to poly. Well, i'm glad to have my closest friends supporting and slapping me each time I try to waver from my studies. So glad to have them as my friends. Today spent my evening at Siglap Starbucks doing assignments + a bit of studying, and then went to Summerbreeze with Leeza, and Qiwei! Didn't drink though, but had one stick too many. Not feeling to good right now, nauseous feeling in the pit of my stomach. Thanks to Qiwei for sending me home for the second time, or not I would have to take a cab home alone, during the you know what month. Its 2:27am and i'm still not asleep, have to wake up for work tomorrow as well. Its either my studies or my work keeping me occupied, which I love because then at least I know i'm too busy for anything else. Hope I don't disappoint anyone, goodnight!

Mini butterflies.

2011-08-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

Thousands of tiny butterflies fluttering in my tummy, a date with you this week. <3

2011-07-30T02:11:00.000+08:00

Looks like i'm not over you after all.

Livejournal Suxs2thecore

2011-07-27T00:57:00.001+08:00

I wrote quite a bit for my blog, and then sent it to be posted, but it hanged and the internet connection was cut off. :( So upsetting! Anyways, so a quick update. Today went to the NSC (National Skin Centre) to see if I could do anything about my skin to make it flawless, and the doctor prescribed me some topical creams, and requested that I come back after 2 months for a chemical peel. Which basically means taking the top layer of my skin and encouraging the growth of new skin cells. Blah blah blah. Then went to meet the girls to study for a bit, I went to check out the gym at parkway (True Fitness Level 7) and they told me to sign on for 3 months at a cost of $150 a month, and it sounded like a great idea, because i'm really determined to lose at least 15kg before CNY (Chinese New Year) Next week am planning to book an appointment with the dentist to see if they could do anything about my teeth, in terms of whitening and straightening. Hopefully, there is a solution or i'll be stuck with ugly ugly, teeth. On top of that, my theory lessons for my bike license is in a week, and i'm more than excited because after that, I'll take my e-trial and be one step closer to passing my riding theory test and starting on my practicals! I felt what its like to ride a bike, and man does it feel good. I am definitely seeing this through, I am no longer going to be fickle-minded. It is only going to affect me badly in the long run. Have school tomorrow at 8 which means I have to get up at 6. Don't know how i'm going to wake up, but i'm going to try my best, I have to force myself to go to school, I don't want to be a loser, working like a dog and getting paid pittance. Yea, i'm all talk but no actions, I'll show you. Urgh.

Goodnight.

MBS

2011-07-25T01:08:00.002+08:00

More at my livejournal sweetie pies!

Http://avenue32.livejournal.com

Love, Sarah. :)

2011-07-23T02:43:00.001+08:00

Moving back to livejournal, here's just too.. lonely.

Hiatus.

2011-07-19T02:24:00.002+08:00

"My mind, body and soul needs a hiatus. Goodbye everybody, till we meet again, 6 months from now."

Comfort in the unknown.

2011-07-18T22:03:00.002+08:00

I have so many god damn things to do (blogging included)! I'm making it a point to blog so that when I grow older, I can look back and see how stupid I was and how everything has changed. Other than that, there are even days where I can't blog but force myself to! After this I have to pack for MBS tomorrow with my sweetie-pies and do some studying till 12! School tomorrow morning at 8.30am pfft!

Schedule for this week.

Tuesday > Classes from 8am-1pm, check-in MBS @ 3, followed by drinking session with my cousins till late

Wednesday > Might have classes from morning till night, and then back to MBS to sleepover.

Thursday > Check out from MBS, tuition @ night 7.30pm-9.30pm, Out to airport to study overnight

Friday > Helmet & Glove shopping, Out with my darlings! (Maybe)

Sat > Work 8-12

Sun > Work 8-12

Other significant days.

1st & 2nd August > Bike theory 1 & 2 + E-trial

21st August > Paramore Concert

All the days free = Study for me. Puipuipui.

Feeling the stress, pull of my hair.

Bye. now. I. shall. go. s.t.u.d.y

Immunity shots.

2011-07-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

I just want to say, I'm contented with life and it couldn't get any better. I know what I want and i'm indeed working hard at it. Work has definitely been draining me, nevertheless, i'm earning money to pay for my license & bike. My schedule's pretty much packed this whole month. This week is gonna be a hell of a week. Checking-in MBS on Tuesday to celebrate two of my cousin's birthday, and going to get drunk as hell (something I'm looking forward to), followed by helmet shopping with Sassi! Am extremely exhausted because I haven't been getting enough rest due to work and stuff, but I know its going to pay off. Talked to my parents about letting me take up dancing, gym and vocal lessons at the end of the year. Booked an appointment with the NSC and seeing them next week. Got to remember to book an appointment with the dentist too! I think I should start getting a journal so that I won't forget all the things I have to do. Just too many. I didn't even write half of the things I have to do this week, good golly! Okay, I better wash up, dance a bit and study!

Sayonara.

2011-07-17T04:39:00.003+08:00

"I've grown, matured. I won't allow my emotions to get the better of me. Yes, I won't. "

Love you like a love song.

2011-07-17T04:29:00.001+08:00

It's been said and done, every beautiful thought's been already sung and I guess right now, here's another one
So your melody will play on and on with the best of 'em
You are beautiful like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical.You saved my life again and I want you to know baby

Chorus
I, I love you like a love song, baby (3x)
And I keep hittin' on repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat
I, I love you like a love song, baby (3x)
And I keep hittin' on repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat

Constantly, boy, you play through my mind like a symphony.
There's no way to describe what you do to me.
You just do to me, what you do and it feels like I've been rescued, I've been set free
I am hypnotized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful, you are and I want you to know, baby

Chorus:
I, I love you like a love song, baby (3x)
And I keep hittin' repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat
I, I love you like a love song, baby (3x)
And I keep hittin' repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat

Bridge:
No one compares, you stand alone to every record I own.
Music to my heart, that's what you are.
A song that goes on and on

I, I love you like a love song, baby (3x)
And I keep hittin' repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat
I, I love you like a love song, baby(3x)

Love you
Like a love song

Crazy loots.

2011-07-14T21:55:00.004+08:00

You guessed it! A pair of high-cuts, which I had been dying to get.

So nice!! Can't stop looking at it! My pretty high-cuts.

Pretty right? :)

$2 watch from daiso, so worth my money!

Undies from cotton on, how to resist taking pics, its adorable!

Foundation Sponges, very useful. Only 3 packs for $5.90!

So to sum up my day, it was spent at Plaza Singapura with the family. Did some shopping, but didn't see things that really grabbed my attention. If you know me, I only buy, if its really worth my while or I really want it badly. Won't buy if I know its too expensive! Am happy with what I got, certain things I bought, I decided not to take pics of. Too tiny to spend any detail on, so I guess I am going to go exercise, do some studying and find some food to munch on while I watch some drama! Hah! Goodnight everybody!

Sky high.

2011-07-14T07:57:00.003+08:00

I just find something oh so comforting about red candles in a dark room, gives me the sense that nothing bad can happen. Weird I know, but call it intuition if you must. Was never scared of the dark. If your wondering, why I am up so early (its 8am by the way), I've been tossing and turning on my bed for the past 2 hours and for some reason, I just can't get too sleep. Too many things on my mind about my school, work, bike and many other things, they keep running through my mind, one by one, one after the other. Maybe it is my own little way of forgetting all the unpleasant things in my life, by creating no time for it. I think I sleep too much though, although most of the time when i'm asleep I don't think at all, and that is probably the best for me. Yet, I feel I could do so much more if I didn't have to sleep. So, been studying a lot, and that for me is a huge achievement. I'm not really the studying type, and only because i'm so strong-willed, I want to prove to those people who don't believe I can make it. I did have a rough start to life, nevertheless, I'm pretty sure it'll get much better as I grow up. My weight is another issue i'm going to have to deal with, whether I like it or not, and that is probably a challenge as difficult as my studies. The only one that I consider extremely difficult to conquer. If I am successful, I know it'll benefit me in the long run, just need that extra push, the determination. I do want it badly, but not bad enough to actually do something about it. On another note, I have decided to completely do a total make-over of myself, in terms of emotionally and psychically.

> Made an appointment with NSC (National Skin Centre) to try to treat my skin

> Hopefully I can bug my dad to let me try invisilign and whiten my teeth

> Attending Singing Lessons to improve my vocals.

> Losing at least 10kg by the end of my O levels

> Stop drinking coke for the time-being

Hopefully, it all works out well, and i'm transformed (haha wtf?) before next year CNY. Yup, I think its time for me to get some shut-eye. Goodnight everybody!

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Mindless Games

2011-07-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

> Went to my first practical for my bike license @ CDC and was awesome

> Managed to clean my room = Making it a conducive place to study

> Ate like a big fat pig, but eh, don't we all? :)

> Planning to start on my diet tomorrow, and yes I know i said that yesterday

> Am planning on a little project for my band A.K.A our 1st music video

> Saving up for my bike, which is not going to be cheap

> Hopefully poker/mahjong night is on this friday

> Excited about the 19th and 20th at MBS for the food convention on the top floor and then a mini celebration for Zhiyu! Woooooo.

You lie beneath murky waters.

2011-07-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

I have been pretty busy with school, my license and work. Have not really much time to do anything but study and earn money for my bike, which is really time consuming considering the fact that there's only 24 hours! I tell you its not enough, plus 8 hours is just too much time wasted on sleeping. Wish I didn't have to sleep, and feel as energetic as I do when I sleep 10 straight hours. If you ask me, I kinda wish I were back in secondary school, had no responsibilities, and when I did, it would be small things like collecting money from my classmates or planning for family day. Now its responsibilities of earning money, getting my priorities right and so many more. Its just so damn scary, scary because i'm finally growing up, and its sooner than I expected it to be. If I screw up my O levels this time, it would really be it. If only I felt what its like to suffer without a proper job for a while, then I'd probably know how bad it is not to study. Ahhh, sorry about the on-going rambles that I like to post on my blog, sometimes I just can't help it, you know? Anyway, I know i've said this a billion gazillion times, but it really is true! Today is the start of my diet, and my goal to becoming 54kg, just going to take it slow, and get healthy! Megan Fox's abs here I come!

Gravity.

2011-07-08T03:07:00.002+08:00

Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.

No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.

You keep me without chains.

I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

CHORUS

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.

When I thought that I was strong.

But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

CHORUS

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I

Try to make you see that you're

Everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe though I

Can't seem to let you go.

The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah

You're onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you

It never takes too long

Hokey Pokey.

2011-07-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

So initially, I went to Starbucks @ parkway with Pearlvinder and boy did we have such a fun time talking about everything under the sun! My cousin came to find me at McCafe and we decided to head to Thaixpress for steamboat, man is it tasty! Am in love with it, call me psycho, but it really does taste so damn good!

On another note, I have decided to go apply for a motorcycle's license, not only is it cheaper but also is super fun especially when your all alone on the road and going 180km/h. Yep, serious adrenaline rush! Tomorrow am heading to Sonya's house after work to have poker night/mahjong night with the girlies. Excited and can't wait. Time for some shut-eye. Goodnight everybody, sweetdreams.

Feels a lot like heaven

2011-06-29T01:32:00.003+08:00

Guess who's the lucky girl that got to eat steamboat today..! Me!

Met up with my cousin today, after her driving test and went to have Roxy Square Steamboat! After a long, long time, I finally got to eat it. I just love satisfying my cravings, don't you? Drank KOI too, and their milk tea is actually very tasty. It feels as though, i've been over-eating way too much, and its taking a toll on my weighing scale. Kinda upset about it cause it took me a lot of determination to lose weight before and now with a blink of an eye, i'm gonna put on all the weight. Must. Control. Self.

Plus am going to work hard from today onwards, aiming for the top schools in the world. Must make my parents proud, no more playing.

Okay time for bed (: Goodnight everybody, sweetdreams!

Pikachu, I choose you.

2011-06-28T04:00:00.002+08:00

'What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.'

My life actually revolved around that sentence, it gave me hope of the better things to come. Yet, now, at 18 you kinda wonder, whether this sentence speaks the truth. I've been pretty optimistic about almost everything, too optimistic at times when i'm supposed to be at a bottomless pit. My dad told me, for example, if I were to get hit by a bus, it doesn't kill me, but paralyzes me, that is proof that I am stronger? That's my dad for you, an optimistic pessimist. Just my random thought of the night.

Today, has been dull and lifeless. Hope tomorrow is slightly more exciting! Going to meet up with my cousin for some tomyum, YES! tomyum! The only thing that can make my heart feel like a million tiny butterflies fluttering around, oh and you of course. I think I've painted my nails a gazillion times tonight, infront of the fan, with my mum nagging of course, not to paint under the fan. As much as she nags, I love her for being the way she is, caring and understanding with a pinch of old granny syndrome. Same goes with my dad, tough and loving with a pinch (when I say pinch, I actually mean tons and tons) of protective instincts over me. Its 4:16am and I ought to be asleep, so I guess i'm just going to lie in bed and fall into my wonderland!

Goodnight everybody, sweetdreams you.

Set fire to the rain

2011-06-24T01:01:00.002+08:00

This was the only pic I could take yesterday, very disappointing, yes I know but I promise I'll try to take more pics in the future! Me, and my girlfriends celebrated one of my closest childhood bestfriend's birthday, finally 18! Went to Zirca, then Lunar? But Lunar was full of old people (haha!!) had good music though. Went back and forth clubs cause it was ladies night, which means... FREE DRINKS! haha as cheap as that may seem, it was very enjoyable. Got to dance and drink with my lovely girlfriends.

Had lunch at MBS with my relatives, it was like a celebratory dinner of my grandmother and step grandfather coming to Singapore for a holiday. Went to 'The Rise' and let me just say that the spread for the lunch buffet is extraordinary, would most definitely go there again! Tomorrow's my maths mid year and I'm pretty prepared, just hope that my confidence doesn't give me an F. It finishes at 2 and have to rush to work after at 3, hope I reach on time!

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On a different note, I miss you. Goodnight everybody and sweetdreams you. Have a good day tomorrow!

Heart on my sleeve.

2011-06-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

You think you've heard this before
I'll try to say it differently
As long as it come naturally to me
It's been making me sad
'Cause I can't find a better way
To speak the words I wanna say to you

Know how I love you
And know how I need you

And I want you to know
Won't let you down
No, I can't let go
And I want you to see
Everyday I wear my heart on my sleeve
On my sleeve

It's been driving me mad
Consistent tones and constant drones
Keep pulling me back inside my head
Nothing matter at all
The world will keep on spinning round
All these feeling keep on pouring out

Oh, how I love you
Oh, how I need you

And I want you to know
Won't let you down
No, I can't let go
And I want you to see
Everyday I wear my heart on my sleeve

I try to write the words down
Before they're lost and won't come out
Oh, please, help me sing my song

And I want you to know
Won't let you down
No, I can't let go
And I want you to see
Everyday I wear my heart on my sleeve
Heart on my sleeve
Heart on my sleeve
Heart on my sleeve

No, I can't let you go
Can't let you go

Oh, I want you to know
Won't let you down
Everyday, yeah, I can't let go
I wear my heart on my sleeve

Dancing in the moonlight.

2011-06-12T04:14:00.002+08:00

Just got back from a night out with the whole gang! Was fun, and I absolutely adore spending time with the whole group! Monday, back to school for me. Later will be heading to work, without any sleep. Going to be so tired, but I guess its worth it, appreciate my bed more. Hehe. Another day, I got to see you again. Hug you and it felt so surreal. Will this be us in the future, or will it be a memory we will both look back and ponder upon?

A little tinge of you.

2011-06-11T03:15:00.003+08:00

Let's call him Mr X.

Right now its 3:17 am and i'm here to blog! These few days have been pretty packed, and going out with Mr X. a lot lately :) I felt what it was like to hold you in my arms and it just made me feel all fuzzy inside. Wonder whether you felt that too, what was suppose to be awkward felt so right. I don't want to show my weakness, thats not me you know? I hope things work out well, I know it will.

Anyhoo, need to start working on my school work! Plus work at the airport is gonna start soon, excited me! Can't really wait, but I know I have to. And tomorrow, hopefully get the chance to have dindin with Mr X. Have so much things to say, but let's just leave it as it is, might just do a vlog. Heehee. Goodnight everybody!

If I Had You.

2011-06-11T02:39:00.004+08:00

So I got my boots on, got the right 'mount of leather

And I'm doing me up with a black color liner

And I'm workin' my strut but I know it don't matter

All we need in this world is some love

There's a thin line 'tween the dark side and the light side baby tonight

It's a struggle gotta rumble trying to find it

But if I had you, that would be the only thing I'd ever need

Yeah if I had you, then money, fame and fortune never could compete

If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy

Yeah, if I had you

You y-y-y-y-you

If I had you.

From New York to LA getting high rock n' rollin

Get a room trash it up 'til it's ten in the morning

Girls in stripper heels, boys rolling in Maseratis

What they need in this world is some love

There's a thin line tween a wild time and a flat line baby tonight

It's a struggle, gotta rumble tryin' to find it

But if I had you, that would be the only thing I'd ever need

Yeah if I had you, then money, fame and fortune never could compete

If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy

Yeah, if I had you

You y-y-y-y-you

If I had

The flashing of the lights

It might feel so good

But I've got you stuck on my mind, yeah!

The fashion and the stage

It might get me high

But it don't mean a thing tonight

That would be the only thing I'd ever need

Yeah, if I had you, the money, fame and fortune never could compete

If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy

Yeah, if I had you

You-y-y-y-y-you

If I had you

That would be the only thing I'd ever need

Yeah, if I had you, then money, fame and fortune never could compete (never could compete with you)

If I had you, life would be a party it'd be ecstasy (it'd be ecstasy with you)

Yeah, if I had you

You y-y-y-y-you

If I had you

Mayday from my heart.

2011-06-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

Why does something so wrong feel so right?

Stars are blinded by my kiss.

2011-05-29T03:45:00.002+08:00

Friday //

On Friday, met up with Jadelzy to sastify my Korean BBQ cravings. Walked to Tanjong Pagar which is famous for Korean Cuisines. Intended to eat at '2D1N Soju Bang' but was packed, nevertheless found an equally delicious Korean BBQ nearby called 'His-tori'. It only costed us each $20 and without any additional charges. Food and drinks were provided and boy did it sastisfy my cravings. Simply delicious, especially the marinated pork, yummy! Will definitely go back there again. It was hot though, sitting outside without the air-con, but so worth it! Walked to Chinatown and gossiped, love my girly outings with Jadelzy.

Saturday //

Went jamming for the second time and getting use to singing with lots and lots of power and energy, but at the end of the day, I know my voice will improve! Ashveil (Band's Name) did Broken, Careless Whisper and Everybody's Fool, all amazing songs. Can't wait for the next jamming session so that I have the opportunity to sing somemore!

(The thumbnails always makes me look weird :()

Because i'm unique that way.

2011-05-27T00:56:00.012+08:00

If you ask me, blogging is pretty fun. Especially if you have the right words to say and pictures to show. Of course with the exception of occasional cam-whore pictures like you see above. My dad always asks me, why would I want to tell strangers about my life, and I told him, well I blog from the heart, and if these strangers bother to read every single word that I write here, then just maybe it might be a little interesting? If you ask me why I really blog... My answer simply would be... Its my source of release, release from the real world into the cyber world where your thoughts can be other people's lifestyle. I started blogging when I was secondary 1, very long time if you look at it in my perspective. Spent most of my time trying to think of what to write on my blogs, plus I do still keep my past blogs, there to remind myself of how silly I was when my hormones were still raging like wild fire. Guys I liked and never really made it with, hah. Go figure... I was 20 more kilograms heavier then I am now, so I think I get a rough idea of why my crushes didn't work out and I know that blogging will not stop for me, I love it too much, rely on it too much to just stop. I will definitely take breaks from it, but never totally off it.

Okay, so my schedule has been packed solid every single day, and of course naturally, any human-being would feel tired. Coming back to a comfy bed always makes me feel so much better and in the morning, I feel as good as new! Oh, and not forgetting the ambience of my room, mixture of Ikea, Daiso and some random antic shop stuff. Which makes me want to come home after each tired day. The mess doesn't help though, to be honest, i've been spoilt all my life, so doing chores may come foreign me, yet I still tell myself that I must, or not I won't be a good women. Bahhhhh... nobody likes cleaning up after themselves, except those with really bad OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - Although sometimes I wish I did suffer from)

Its time for bed, going to wash up, watch a little vampire diaries and fall into my dream land. Have a good night everybody.

Hugs and Kisses.

Youtube.

2011-05-24T19:24:00.001+08:00

Me, myself and I!

2011-05-20T03:58:00.000+08:00

Goodnight sweeties!

Pearl.

2011-05-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

She is a pyramid
But with him she's just a grain of sand
This loves too strong like mice and men
Squeezing out the life that should be let in

She was a hurricane
But now she's just a gust of wind
She used to set the sails of a thousand ships
Was a force to be reckoned with

She could be a statue of liberty
She could be Joan of Arc
But he’s scared of the light that’s inside of her
So he keeps her in the dark

Oh she used to be a pearl
Ohh yeah she used to rule the world
Ohhhh cant believe she’s become a shell of herself
Cause she used to be a pearl

She was unstoppable
Moved fast as like an avalanche
But now she’s stuck deep in some man
Wishing that they never ever met
She could be a statue of liberty
She could be a Joan of Arc
But he’s scared of the light that’s inside of her
So he keeps her in the dark

Oh She used to be a pearl
Ohh yeah she used to rule the world
Ohhhh can’t believe she’s become a shell of herself
Cause she used to be a

Do you know that there’s a way out
There’s a way out
There’s a way out
There’s a way out
You don’t have to be held down
Be held down
Be held down
Be held down

Cause I used to be a shell...
Yeah I let him rule my world
My world Ohhh yeah

But I woke up and grew strong and I can still go on
And No one can take my pearl
You don’t have to be a shell No
You’re the one that rules your world Ohh
You are strong and you’ll learn
That you can still go on
And you’ll always be a pearl
She is unstoppable

Off to study! Bye!

Chips

2011-05-17T16:58:00.004+08:00

Had such an awesome time with the gang at Chips! Drank, did crap and had so much fun! Long week ahead, wednesday, thursday school and then friday jamming! Wooo!

Vlog 3. Love me love me.

2011-05-16T03:51:00.003+08:00

To do list: (For Monday)

> Attend Mathematics

> Meet-up with Jorelle and the gang

> Take pics to blog

> Finish up my h/w

so what shall I do on tuesday? Hmmmm..... Study? Shall I?!

Pink with a splash!

2011-05-15T02:37:00.003+08:00

My new ultimate fav parfum! So today met up with the band and we plan to jam this coming friday at waterloo! My second time jamming... but now with proper band members, hah! The last time I went was with the girlies, seriously failed attempt, nevertheless we had fun. Chilled at esplanade, and marina macs with the whole group. I had to eat the 'initiation burger' which is a mix of mcchicken and double cheeseburger! It killed me, only ate 3 quarters. It was huge...! I am so glad that everyday has been packed tight with activities, but now, have to get down to business and study.. I plan to study tomorrow and Monday, maybe Tuesday as well. Should I go to Siglap, Simei or the airport? I like Simei, so I guess I shall study at Simei. Its, 2:53 am right now, and i'm so sleepy, spent the whole day out, I had fun. Goodnight everybody. Long day tomorrow.

Your kisses blew me a breathless whisper

listen to the soft touch of my lips

there you go again, fracturing pieces of my soul.

Bringing me to the death of which I seek.

(i'm in love with what I wrote!) hahahahahahahahahahahah :P

End of my week, start of my weekend!

2011-05-14T04:33:00.002+08:00

Me singing, Hero by Mariah Carey.

Today was a very fun day with my ex-classmates! Miss them so much, I almost forgot how much fun I use to have with them, talked, played mahjong, wii and kinect! Gonna meet them more often!~

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Went to bugis the day before, with leeza and den, to play warcraft. Yes.. i'm secretly a ninja. Haha call me a nerd, but we won the first round! I was very happy, i've never won! Believe or not! For supper we had Geylang 126 dimsum, which was oh so yummy! Meeting with Jorelle and his band tomorrow at 3! So I ought to catch some shuteye! Nights everybody ~

Vlog 2. Instead of my singing vid

2011-05-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

Korean Obsession. Warning: Extreme Camwhore

2011-05-11T23:11:00.004+08:00

So... Do I pass as a Korean? haha, I don't think so~

My weekend is pretty much packed tight! :D Can't wait for drinks with my ex classmates at Clarke Quay on Friday! Going to continue dancing! Bye!

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Continuation of today!

Hmmm... what can I say about today. Nothing much actually, went to Starbucks to study commerce, and surprisingly I did learn something, something about production i think? hahahah. Came back just in time for tuition, and absorbed POA stuff. Which is goooood for me ;) Drinks with the ladies on friday @ Clarke Quay and Sat and Sun, either study and out with the family! Life cannot get any better with my friends :)

Have a wonderful night everybody!~

Photobooth Madness!!!

2011-05-11T01:27:00.002+08:00

Spent the day studying at Simei Starbucks and went over to cam's house to spam photobooth pics! Not going to put all of them, but most of the nice ones are up! So enjoy.. Oh and a singing video at the end of this :)

P.S MY ROOM IS FREEEEZINGGGG BRRRRRRR.

A couple of vids we took, hilarious!!!!

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And of course to wrap up today, me singing. Sway - Pussy Cat Dolls

I'm a bit rough at the high parts, but try to understand how tired I am! Love love.

Have a wonderful night everybody (even though I only have 4 hours more to sleep.) I am happy!

Bye now I shall go and study!

2011-05-10T15:10:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the camwhoreness(?) Off to meet the girlies (cammy and sonson) at Simei Starbucks. Must do some 10 yr series papers.. Toodles! He he he he he he... Should I go for ladies night tomorrow? hmmmmm...

Spaghetti!

2011-05-10T12:48:00.001+08:00

Yummy :)

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Kiss kiss kiss me

2011-05-10T03:26:00.001+08:00

Re-Openingz Ze Tumblr ;)

Http://Tumblr.com/glittergloss

Kissykissy <3 hehe

P.S. I think Tumblr is down.. But hopefully it'll regain consciousness and be alive!!!! Megan fox ftw!!!! He he he

Blabber, blab blab.

2011-05-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

Warning, if you don't like lengthy posts, then I think you should click the X button right now! Its going to be all about words.

To be really honest, I've just been lazing around, be it at school or at home. I think I spend way too much time on enjoyment and food rather than studying and one day its going to take a toll. What can I do to make me more determined to study? My dad, my mum and my boyfie are expecting a lot from me, especially the trust that they have in me to get into the course that I want. Plus, my binging is not helping whatsoever. I keep eating and eating and i'm worried that I'll be really really obese. I have to stop eating :( I just have to! Very very very naggy, I know. Can't help it. I must stop.

The pictures of my past.

2011-05-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

Nothing else I can say.

Vlog no.1

2011-04-30T03:34:00.000+08:00

Nightnight!

I love you.

2011-04-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

This just makes me want to hold my boyfriend close and never let go. I love you Bernard, so so much and I cherish every single day I get to spend with you. I will never change anything, anything between us. I'm so glad that I have you in my life.

MBS & The Army's day out.

2011-04-24T01:14:00.004+08:00

MBS

Had the chance to spend two nights at MBS with my sweetheart, and enjoy the amazing view from the club room located on the 37th floor! I requested for the city view which made the stay absolutely fantastic. Had the chance to eat many different types of food and got to have a mini getaway with the boyfie!

Me and the boyfie in the hotel room, waiting to go for dinner at 'The Rise'

The amazing night view!

Mirror shot!

Heh, room service.

This beef burger we called from room service was simply delicious!

Wanton mee with huge wantons! My fav!

Messy messy me.

Love the toilet, couldn't bare to leave!

Was so sad when I had to check out, the pool on the 57th floor was breath-taking, the view was to die for. These two days passed very quickly especially when I got to enjoy it with my love.

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Girl's Day out to Haji Lane.

Finally met up with The Army, long awaited. Took a lot of pics, missed those girls, got to catch with them!

Love these girls! Can't wait for our next girl's night out, next time it will be drinks!

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Don't know why these few weeks have been extra tiring for me, probably because i'm getting old, hah, what a joke. Hope nothing really serious is happening to me, hoping the best but expecting the worse you know? School starts on Monday and both me and my boyfie will see less and less of each other, its the test of how strong our relationship is. I love him from the bottom of my heart, and nothing will ever change that. Time for bed, too tired to do anything else. Nightnight.

Life & style diaries.

2011-04-17T20:44:00.002+08:00

Today I had the honour of spending the day with my mum, and boy did we shop! For lunch, we went to 'Kushin-bo' located @ Suntec City, tower 1 I think and the only reason why we considered that place, was cause of the paper steamboat, which is absolutely my favourite!

Yum, am still drooling just looking at it!

My lovely company!

Had the chance to shop my head off, and these are the few things that I bought, there are probably some cam-whore shots in there, so bear with me! I really am glad that I got to spend quality time with my mum, growing up makes me naturally spend less and less time with her.

$37.90 from Newlook @ Suntec

$5 from F21 @ 313 Somerset

Bought this dress from newlook @ Suntec for $33.90

Bought this lovely red piece from F21 @ 313 Somerset for $23? $33? (can't really remember)

Never felt closer.

2011-04-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today had such a wonderful day with my sweetheart, it was simple and we didn't spend too much money. He came over, picked me up and we headed to Plaza Singapura to watch RIO and it was nice family show, at least got to cuddle with the boyfie. After the movie, off to ToysRUs Suntec to look for my baby cousin's gift! Pepper Lunch followed after, and we went to the middle of Suntec to take pics and the thing is. I never felt more closer to my boyfriend, I love him so much. Will never let him go! Okay, here are some of the pics! A short vid is up on my fb profile! Me & ber being silly!

doesn't he look like he's from the army? So sexy!

I did something drastic to my hair.

2011-04-04T17:53:00.002+08:00

I went to do something really really really different with my hair.

Haha, i'm just kidding. I went to cut bangs! :) Needed a small change, and was contemplating on bangs for a very long time already!

I look like i'm 14 -_____-" Oh well, looks like i'll have to wait till it grows again!

Looks do matter.

2011-03-25T00:39:00.004+08:00

I'm always wondering, whether i'm ever skinny enough, or pretty enough or even tall enough. Till now, I still don't think i'm good enough for anybody. Teenagers, like myself, keep trying to find their source of happiness, but sadly, they don't realize that they are their own happiness. People keep telling me, no, looks don't matter, only character, thats what truly matters. No one would want to give you a second look, if you don't even have a pretty exterior. This is life for you, full of disappointment and regret. I wish I was born perfect, but no one is really. Yes, maybe one or two in a lifetime, but thats the maximum. You'd have to be real lucky to be born perfect, no flaws, no worries and no disappointments. To be honest, i've been through countless heartbreaks because of my weight problem. If I didn't have these problems, trust me, I would be an obese girl eating my snacks every few hours, but because I do, I'm constantly trying to fight this fat battle and it is NOT easy at all. If only a person can invent a switch, where you can turn off and on weight gain. Yet, I still count myself quite lucky. I was born without any deformities, no diseases, no abnormalities. So now it all boils down to, why am I still complaining?

You see, everyone, looks for perfection, they want to be perfect, and even if that 5 kg weight loss or nose job or even boob job can make them feel one step closer to perfection, they would go through all that pain and suffering, just for that inch closer to being perfect. I am one of them, I strive to perfect so desperately that I lose my sense of judgment, decision and morality. We live in a doggy dog world, if I wasn't like this, then what kind of person am I suppose to be? Everyday, you look in the mirror, the feeling of ugliness strikes you, like a whip, over and over and over again, until one day, you just can't take it, and you start to do something about it. Like for instant what i've been trying to do for the last half a year, which is to lose 15kg. Not an easy task, if you should know. I've been tearing myself away from foods that are like heaven to me and the sad thing is, I have to start again, not eating foods I love to eat, cutting down on snacks, not taking soft drinks at all and exercising 4 to 6 times a week. To achieve perfection, I have to keep working at it. I need to find the strength, self-determination and courage to see this through.

Wish me luck.

Like the story never began.

2011-03-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

Look at the fats, *slurps**rolls on the floor*

This is some good stuff!

Eliza, with her dinosaur 'tattoos' haha!

At the rate of me missing school, I'm going to fail O levels. Today I gave school a miss, went to Simei Starbucks to 'study' for a while, and then off to meet Eliza for breakfast. We probably ate the most fattening food a person can eat for breakfast. Yes, that's us. Family. Had Tori Q & the crispy chicken and boy was it delicious. Bernard came over just as Eliza was about to leave, accompanied him for his breakfast @ KFC!

Why is everyone giving my camera the finger? :<

After he ate, we went to his mechanic's shop to fix minor problems on his bike! Let me tell you that his bike feels awesome, especially when he hits 100km/h and above! But safety first.

Remind you of anyone? Let me give you a hint, he rhymes and makes up riddles.

Yes! He's the riddler!

Aren't you in love with my camera, cause I am!

Doesn't my sweetheart's bike look de'awesomenest? But i'm still a car person hehe!

Had a good day with two of my love ones! Goodnight.

In the eyes of a fish.

2011-03-21T01:47:00.002+08:00

I have never had so much fun with my camera before! Especially when the quality of my pictures come out fantastic! Just got my fisheye lens yesterday and it was certainly a very, very fun lens to have and experiment with! Always wanted a fisheye lens to hook on to my DSLR, and I finally got one. So happy! Love how the pics turned out. Me, zhiyu, my cousin and his girlfriend went fishing at Bedok Jetty and it is something that everyone should try, the feeling of catching a fish is just exhilarating. Ohkay, shall do something productive, like study.

Challenges, hurdles and the finishing line.

2011-03-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life, you come across challenges & hurdles. Some may be extremely tough and some, not so difficult. Well, in my life, i'm faced with many. You fall occasionally, and it may hurt you so badly that you forget about the finishing line, but sometimes, no matter how painful it gets, you still have the strength and courage to pick yourself up and finish what you started out to do from the beginning. The power of wanting something so badly that, you would do anything in your power to make it happen. Yet, for me, I don't have that something that I want so badly that i'd risk my enjoyment and gratification of the pleasures in life now. You know when people get stuck? It can be anytime in their life, be it 6 years old or even 60 years, they are just... stuck. Well, i'm stuck. I'm still trying to define my needs and my wants, which isn't quite going so well for me since it is all over the place right now, mixed up like the pearls in a bubble-tea drink. I need that 'thing'. That thing to drive me to excel, can be anything really, just hope that 'thing' exists. I've said so many times that I can't bare to disappoint my parents, its running through my mind, so why aren't I doing anything about it? Am I so simple-minded? So DUMB? To not see what is happening to my life, what i'm going to become. (and at this rate probably a toilet cleaner) To not see what my parents are trying to prevent me from? MYSELF. This just proves to show that I have no self-discipline whatsoever. I can't even keep my weight down (god save me!) Let alone keep to a proper schedule.

Yup, Sarah Anne Barnett, your going down a really 'good' path.

Have to turn it around before its too late, and i'm sweeping the floors of orchard road thinking what have I done to myself. Yes, yes. Before its too late.

Summertime Sunshine

2011-03-10T00:09:00.003+08:00

So these past few weeks have been pretty hectic, with school and everything. Yes, I've decided to stick to doing my O levels again and yet, I have so many things to do!

> Apply for my O levels

> Get assessments books

> Get POA and A Maths tuition

> Change my blackberry

> Book a facial for Friday

> Go for medi & pedi

> Earn some money

> Catch up on my work in school

So here are some pictures that are beyond overdue!

Su & Al!

Su!

Tommy acting cool! hahahahahaha

Al & Baby!

Tommy and his antics! ~

I love you baby <3

Baby's birthday dinner!

Lyn & Su!

Alvin you are missed!

Parkway Smarkway.

2011-02-27T13:44:00.002+08:00

Right now its 1:45pm on my clock, and i'm suppose to meet the boyfie at 2 @ parkway! So killing some time by blogging! Well, as some of you know, I've enrolled into MDIS which is basically another private school. I decided to re-take my O's cause of the many choices I would have if I did. Hope this year I will buck up and choose priorities better! I get so distracted easily, have to learn to not be. Anyway, I think I better leave now before my mr grumpy becomes mr grumpier. Toorah!!

Best boyfriend in the world.

2011-02-15T05:09:00.002+08:00

If you asked me about boys or relationships or even couples 3 years back, i'll probably say it was non-existent that love was non-existent. For me, when I finally met my boyfie, I thought maybe he was just another guy who would break my heart, just like david or fareez. Well, i've done almost everything in the book to push him away from me when we first started talking. He just stayed by my side and told me everything I wanted to hear. At first, I thought maybe it was another "move" that guys do, but I was wrong. He is by far, the only guy that has given me happiness beyond my wildest dreams. When i'm sick, he brings me honey & lemons for my throat. When i'm craving for something, he would bring me wherever I wanted to go. When i'm heartbroken, he would be the one that cheers me up. The best thing that has happen to me, really. I hope he feels the same way and your probably thinking, its just "puppy love". I really hope its not, and i'm going to do everything that I can to make it work. For all those people who think that me and ber cannot last, we'll see you in 6 years to say these exact words, "who's the one laughing now".

Chance my love.

2011-02-07T02:51:00.003+08:00

Baby: "damn ahlian!" Me: "hahahahahahahah I know right"

*Both of us starts laughing*

Today was yet another awesome day w/ my baby boy, went to quite a number of places! Met at around 5 to 6 and headed to Marina Square for a carnival at Esplanade! It was specially because of CNY and had lots of fun rides + games + street food. Not as many people as I expected though, considering the fact that Singaporeans are so damn "kiasu"(people who are scared to lose) when it comes to luck. Ha ha, I have to admit though, i'm too one of the "kiasu" people, couldn't resist the 4D numbers that dropped from Caishen (fortune god), bought 8110. Hopefully it'll come out as first prize! After that, went to eat Thai Express @ Marina and honestly, each time I go there, the tomyum just keeps getting worse and worse, it wasn't as good as the first time I went there to have the tomyum steamboat.

Mount Faber was next on our list, and boy was it a good venue, let me tell you, of all the times i've been up there, I have never went up to the highest point of Mount Faber and today I got a chance to walk up, and it was breath-taking, probably the nicest view I have seen in my life (yes pretty sad) , about the same feeling when you look out at the mountains in Genting. It is the perfect place to go w/ someone you love, no not to be frivolous and do naughty stuff but to just enjoy each other's company at the advantage of that romantic 360 degree view of Singapore. I'm glad that my sweetheart brought me up there, I finally know what I had been missing! It was around 10.40pm, two fat men was next! Had drinks and some buffalo wings which wasn't too good, watched some Liverpool VS Chelsea match, pretty much just spent lots of time with my boyfie. I'm so glad I have him!

Its pretty late now, and its time for me to clean of my make-up and head to bed, meeting bb tomorrow at his place for maybe a movie? Goodnight!

CNY blues?

2011-02-03T07:10:00.002+08:00

So hey everybody, CNY (Chinese New Year) is finally here! I hope it wouldn't be another boring holiday, like Christmas or the New Year. I spent quite a short time finding a dress for the CNY party thats going to be held at my aunt's place which is in about.. 6 hours, and yet, i'm not asleep. There's actually a belief that the later you stay up, the better it would be for your parents longevity! I guess my parents are going to live a long and meaningful life because I specially stayed up for them. He he. Today, met up with baby's friends and had hell of a fun time! Went to henderson wave and it was breath-taking as usual. Took a lot of pictures! Its on my fb, but fret not, they will be posted on my blog soon, I hope. Not forgetting, CNY pictures which are going to kill me slowly and painfully cause of how much editing I have to do on them. Pretty excited for tomorrow, angpows to collect, people to impress and food to eat! Oh, how I love steamboat~ Especially at my aunt's place, steamboats extra good. Hopefully the CNY party ends late, so baby can come over and meet some of my relatives. I guess I better head to bed, am extremely tired and I really don't know how i'm going to wake up tomorrow. Boo hoo hoo. Goodnight!

Cravings.

2011-01-29T02:56:00.001+08:00

Small update! I feel like having tomyum(from thai express), tomyum(roxy square), steamboat (golden mile complex), green apple ice blended (each-a-cup), buffet breakfast (any hotel that has bacon), shabushabu (marina square), shabushabu (at east coast rd) and pontian wanton mee (parkway parade). I just realized I am a pig, how can I crave for so many things! Oh well, maybe i'm born like that and the bad news is that i'm gaining massive amounts of weight. I miss my boyfie a lot! Didn't see him like for a day! Yup, i'm crazy!

Tomorrow i'm heading down to the boyfie's place to have movie marathon, wonder what shows are nice! Was thinking of something on the lines of comedy? I really hope he's in the mood for shabushabu, cause I am really, terribly craving for it. Have lots of things to do before CNY! Like.. buy accessories to match with my outfit, get information about my school, have somemore tomyum, plan my diet journal, try to lose 4kg and spend more time with ber! Too many things, and I don't have much time left, pfft! Hate how time passes so fast, esp when your with the people you love!

Silent night.

2011-01-27T05:04:00.003+08:00

I keep thinking about whats going to happen to me? I've failed my O levels, and I feel as though its the end. Yet, there are so many other choices for me out there. Aye, let's not think about it anymore! So I decided to put up a video of me singing Silent Night because I use to love this song esp during Christmas! Well, tomorrow I have a long day planned, am planning to get my eyelash extensions done and my nails done too. Oh if I feel like it, a little hair extension? Man, I have a feeling that tomorrows not going to be a cheap day for me, anyway, beauty has a price doesnt it?

On another note, my blog has been so dead and flabby, yes FLABBY. No volume! I need to add some spunk, more pictures, more videos and more of my quirky adventures! I did have many adventures when I was in Secondary, and now I am a lifeless piece of meat, that stays at home and sits on the couch watching "Asian Food Channel" God save me, I'm turning into a couch pig potato! Since I left school haven really been in contact with my friends or my cousins. I miss them all, and I miss my boyfie the most! Although I met him just a few hours ago. I'm crazy, aren't I? Yup, thats what love does to you, it makes you crazy!

Toorah.

Head straight into the light.

2011-01-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

Today I spent almost the whole day with the boyfie and it felt really good cause we don't usually spend more then 6 hours together? Today, we spent about 12 hours together, and it was nice. Okay, so basically, ber came to pick me up at around 1 plus 2, and we headed down to Kaplan to check out the course for banking but sadly the Kaplan at cuppage wasn't exactly the right place to go to check out the course, and so we decided to have our lunch at the nearby "Pontian Wanton Mee". It was so good I tell you. Since me and bb had to buy our CNY clothes, we went to Far East, and yes we walked all the way there cause my bb's helmets got drenched in the rain but pretty near if you ask me. Bought 3 maxi's and very happy with what i got. We ended up back at 313 to ride back to Kallang, where we caught "Burlesque". Let me tell you that the show was awesome! Kinda am jealous though, the girls in the movie were very sexy, no where close to my body. Hah. Oh well, that's how much I like my food. We were at Kallang, partly cause of the ball game at the arcade, so damn addictive! Oh and we ate at this Japanese Restaurant called Akashabu? The shabu shabu was def very tasty and I wouldn't mind going back there again! Meeting ber tomorrow again and going to have a mini movie marathon at his house, hopefully it doesn't rain, been having really sucky weather. I love my boyfriend!

City, street lights.

2011-01-23T17:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night, went out with bb and he brought me to two places. One was mount faber and the other hendenson wave! Both places were just breath-taking and its funny how a city like Singapore can have such beautiful views like those. I had so much fun especially riding on ber's bike! Its a completely new experience for me plus this would be my first time riding on a bike and sad to say, I actually enjoy it a lot. Oh, went to eat curry rice, if i'm not wrong its at Thompson? and let me tell you it is delicious!! Can't wait for our next little date. byebye.

4 things.

2011-01-21T12:53:00.002+08:00

No 1.

I really, really need to do treatment to my hair, look at it. Its so damaged! But I terribly want to curl it, aye. I shall wait till it grows till my waist! My parents are against anything I want to do to my hair. Plus I need a facial ASAP.

No 2.

I am in love with my mouse, its red and its heart shape! But with the stupid LANEIGE logo on it, need to find a new red mouse, and yes. If you still haven't noticed. My favourite colour is red. Oh and not forgetting, with lots and lots of bling!

No 3.

I have to go to work and its getting pretty darn boring, you just stand there and pack, pack, pack. Goodness, its driving me crazy. Okay, maybe its not that bad but still! Its draining me so badly, and my social life. Don't get me started about that. Goddamit.

No 4.

I really really MUST do something with my nails after i'm done with this job, maybe acrylic? I've been dying to do that since forever! Plus my nails are atrocious right now, its slowly chipping and its getting really ugly! The sad thing is, I don't even have nail polish remover, have to get it later! Okay time for work. Pffffft. Byebye.

Starry, starry night.

2011-01-20T02:29:00.002+08:00

Bb's at my place and its suppose to be a secret, but how secret can it be if I write it all over my blog right? Had tomyum for supper just a few hours ago, and I still am in the mood for tomyum, but from Thai Express.

Oh and I've decided when i'm done with my job in feb, I would re-vamp, maybe a touch of red in my sheets, polaroids here and there and maybe some new furniture! Not that i'm earning truckloads of money, just enough to pay for all these, or maybe...i'll just ask my parents? Was thinking of a nice dressing table, some christmas lights (yes, i know so cliche) and to add on, my galaxy projector. Its going to be the room i've dreamed about my whole life, okay now i'm exaggerating. I can't wait to get out of this house and be able to afford a nice small "ikea" apartment. Those that have probably 2 rooms in total? I've cleaned out my room, despite the fact that i'm a total slacker when it comes to cleaning anything. I just love the aura thats eluding from the candles in my room, maybe i'll shop for more.

Right now, ber is lying next to me and he's trying his best to peek at what i'm writing, but no, i'm not allowing it. He will have to be patient and read this after it's published like anyone else. This is kind of breaking the law in the family, I mean if you've met my dad, then you'd probably know how strict he is when it comes to guys, especially when i'm allowing my bf to sleep in the same room as me. Yes, highly risky. But i like risks, i think? I wonder what'll happen if my dad ever finds out, would he stop me from seeing b? or even take a knife from the kitchen and kill him, tear open his stomach and pull out his guts? I reckon he'll just try his best to make his life a living hell. My poor, poor baby. Thats the problem, having a father that grew up in an english family oh and adding to it, spent about 20 years in the army. I'm practically his army officer, one of his recruits. Pfft. Yet, I love him so, so much. No matter how strict and anti-social he is.

Okay, let's talk about what happened today, I went to work, from 2 to 9. Yes, its very tiring and it drains me so much by the end of the day. I can't be frivolous even if I tried. My tummy hasn't been good, probably cause i've been drinking coke almost every hour. Damn, i'm going to die of either hyper sugar rush overdose, or obesity, whichever plagues me first. Curse me and my desire for food. After work, headed home and thats what I did for the whole day, yes, waste of bloody time. Need to apply for my driver's license soon, can't procrastinate any longer!

I guess this pretty much wraps up what I want to talk about today. Goodnight :)

Love struck.

Release me.

Company Lunch *Long Overdue.

Give Me Everything Tonight

My Lazy Thursday Afternoon

So many things, so little money.

Banana Split Icecream

Wet Cats.

Love letters to you.

Busy bee.

Bring it on birthday girl.

Ice cream chef.

The day I got a haircut.

First Confessional.

Retail Therapy

Diu diu diu.

When september ends.

Work, weight, win.

Sunset boulevard.

Zirca/Rebel with loves!

Slow down.

Indescribable.

What do you do when its raining?

TGIFridays.

Errand day

Blinding heartstrings

Time for a change.

Running unicorns

Pitch Darkness

Summerbreeze

Mini butterflies.

Livejournal Suxs2thecore

MBS

Hiatus.

Comfort in the unknown.

Immunity shots.

Love you like a love song.

Crazy loots.

Sky high.

Mindless Games

You lie beneath murky waters.

Gravity.

Hokey Pokey.

Feels a lot like heaven

Pikachu, I choose you.

Set fire to the rain

Heart on my sleeve.

Dancing in the moonlight.

A little tinge of you.

If I Had You.

Mayday from my heart.

Stars are blinded by my kiss.

Because i'm unique that way.

Youtube.

Me, myself and I!

Pearl.

Chips

Vlog 3. Love me love me.

Pink with a splash!

End of my week, start of my weekend!

Vlog 2. Instead of my singing vid

Korean Obsession. *Warning: Extreme Camwhore*

Photobooth Madness!!!

Bye now I shall go and study!

Spaghetti!

Kiss kiss kiss me

Blabber, blab blab.

The pictures of my past.

Vlog no.1

I love you.

MBS & The Army's day out.

Life & style diaries.

Never felt closer.

I did something drastic to my hair.

Looks do matter.

Like the story never began.

In the eyes of a fish.

Challenges, hurdles and the finishing line.

Summertime Sunshine

Parkway Smarkway.

Korean Obsession. Warning: Extreme Camwhore